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August 03 can't sleep. Do you ever get those nights where for the life of you, everything you try to do, you just can't sleep? well that's me. right now. I can't sleep. I have so much on my mind...and i wish it would all just go away right now. Ahh... i think i have a solution, im going to go sit under the stars or go for a swim right now, cool off, think about things some more... ahh...life is so puzzling, yet so amazing. God has everything worked out in his amazing plan for my life, and i just have to keep trusting Him, as each day goes on.
Love Me ;) July 17 long time no write ...so it's pretty funny... last year at this time i didn't stop updating this thing--- i was constantly writing a new entry, about the crazy awesome summer i was having.
This year is completely different, but im still having a super awesome time.
this past week my parents went away with my sister to new jersey ... and i was home alone. I had a sweet time hanging out with some good friends of mine. I was very busy though. I had dvbs from mon- fri .. and i worked a bit as well. :) Work is going great . i love it. I work at Red Lobster and it is a lot of fun. The people seem to be great so far..and well i just think this will be a great experience. umm some of the highlights from this week are:
1) a giant cookie
2) river/peace fountain walk
3) movies
4) falling asleep in EVERY movie :P lol
5) driving (in the rain) lol
6) "that's cancer"
7) new purchases
8) cleaning my room! haha
9) montanas
10) nacho libre
11) "can i comb my hair like this?"
12) human cage
13) MCDONALDS!
okay, well i could go on a bit more ... but all in all it was a great week. I did miss my family quite a bit though. It's a lot different, coming home to an empty house. I am just so glad that they had an awesome time ..and that they arrived home safe, and that they brought home to me ...a bunch of presents! yay! :)
So .. let's see .. this week i'm working wed thurs fri and sat !! and tomorrow hanging out with aubrey and whoever from harrow? jer for sure i know. Jen wanted me to go to cedar point with her and mel .. but i can't, cuz i have to work. so that sucks! :( no cedar point this year... that's pretty crazy .. i better go by the end of the summer though! Wow ... next week daycamp .. this summer is going by pretty fast! Speaking of which, I got my satisfactory in placement, and i got my courses/electives today for my SECOND year of college! Wow this year, is going to be very different. Also a dear friend is in my prayers. I love her to death, and I hope she knows that I am here for her forever. Well that's about it for now. Hope whoever read this, enjoyed it. Take care.
LoVe Me ;) June 08 satisfaction .. has reached me ! :)I must say, i am satisfied...finally ...
LIFE IS GOOD :)
Things are starting to look up! i had an awesome day today, and it's been two months, and i must say im doing well :) i had a talk with someone today, and it just completely made my entire day ....and i hung out with carol, which was amazing, i miss her so much, and we had such a good talk, well we always do ...and on sunday i should be hanging out with kaiterzzz cuz i misss her soo much, and camping this weekend! wooot :) And job starting soon! .. this is all amazing .. . I have amazing friends .. and an AMAZING family .. who loves me and cares about me, i definetely learned that from jenny, thanks jen :) ..and steph was down, and i misss her SOOO Much already, and she just left... but we had some pretty sweet times together! and im soo happy that they are both my sisters, i couldn't ask for better ones! The only thing now ... EDMONTON needs to win!!! lol ... Ah, pumped for this summer... it's gonna be fun!!
LoVe Me ;) June 04 10 things i hate about you
"I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair; I hate the way you drive my car, I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, And the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; It even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right, I hate it when you lie, I hate it when you make me laugh; Even worse when you make me cry. I hate it that you're not around, And the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I DON'T hate you; Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all." June 01 ........Well, it's beeeeeeeen a while! im done my first year at st.clair, 2 more to go... soon to be gettin a job ... so excited that i got what i was waiting for FOREVER!!!!! and umm ... im just looking forward to this summer, and definetely gettin over a lot of stuff, but a lot still sucks ...
May 04 .. life.. proved to be interesting.Well .. life's been interesting lately ...
22 more days of placement.. it's amazing, but somewhat stressful ... i have to do that paper too .. grr..
So excited for summer and my *surprise* yeeeeah! .. this is gonna be amazing. So cedar point is completely out of the picture now... i'm not going, for the first time in like 5 years. oh well .. stuff happens. it would just not be a good day .. so im just gonna keep busy here in windsor. camping with the kids in june i think, looking forward to that, for a few reasons .. woot! .. Umm definetely have been htubbin it with emily .. yay! soon the CW will be brought back to life! ya ... i miss kaiterz .. it's been tooo long ..we had some amazing times.
On a better note, last night i talked to laura, and ... drumroll ... JordY! .. woohoo .. i miss that kid .. ah i loved that family .. well still do. .. but ya .. um .. things are different, wondering if a few people are still alive ...
..ah .. friends can be surprising .. do things u would never expect.. it's so crappy .. .and then things just change ... and you have a different perspective about them .. then theres exciting stuff goin on too .. the trust factor just has to work it's way for both of us .. but ... we'll see.. i'm pretty sure, good times comin up ..
well that's it for now ... mass at placement, so i decided not to go ...
oh .. and leave the pieces.. i love that song.. thanks emmY! = ))
LoVe Me ;) April 22 Life in a nutshell as of right now. .well it's been a while again. and more interesting and new things happening ... well not really .. but w/e ... ummm sunday was an interesting day, not as awkward as i expected, but w/e .. my week at placement was excellent as always... learning new things all the time.. and yah, its just great experience for my future. Ummm been hanging out with some awesome friends :))) all fun times ... clearly .. today .. was ...boring .. like always :P .. haha but toni and i got everyone to become friends ... woot! loved it .. and pool party at my house SOON ... ok well when the pool is open .. but ya ...SOOOO excited for my *secret* .. um .. sang last night at appreciation dinner, with kailey, that went well .. beauuuuuutiful song!! we have to start preparing for the next time we sing! Umm ... tonight im supposed to help with youth thing. .. and then bonfire at mikes maybe? who knows? thatd be sweet tho ... i remember 3 summers ago maybe 4 ... it was EVERY SATURDAY NIGHT bonfire!! and those were amazing times, maybe we can get those rollin' again! lots has changed, so it might be a lil weird, but ii will for sure go! ... mom is having a good time back to work .. and yah .. it's great! what else?? umm .. cp .. is in like 29 days. .it's funny how i was SOOO excited .. and now it's just like .. ya .. it's coming up SO soon, and blah ... it's just crappy now... but MOVING ON! ... redoing the living room .. got it painted today .. helped with the renovating all week long.. im pretty pumped to see this finished room .. with the new furniture and all! STill looking for a job ... lol .. gotta check out a couple places... that are very good possibilities *crossed fingers* .. umm ... should be going out with kait authier for lunch sometime this week ...venting sessions.. lol ... and talking, and catching up .. oh gosh, the good ol' days! .. and i miss kaiters.. and i hope everything is well in her life, and kaittt im always thinkin of you my dear! <3 ... umm ... I get to go on a field trip on thursday with my grade 6's... gonna be sweet .. im pumped for that! Well ... that's about it for now ... there's an update on my life. . It's going wonderfully, better than i thought it would be 2 weeks ago! .. haha... oh. people. LoVe mE ;) April 14 every experience just makes me stronger.well .. today is good friday! last night was fun ..the day was crappy, placement was awesome as always, but then i got thinking about things, and i became bitter, sad, depressed.. u name it .. but then i got cheered up. went to starbucks .. had a frappucino .. yummy :) had a wonderful chat about babies flying into the sky .. and about .. who knows what? lol ...thnks! well today went to church.. teared up a bit, sorry aubrey ... but then i settled down, talked with aubrey adam and kailey after. <3
Came home, ate some lunch and now im just kinda sittin around... gonna watch the passion of the christ some time today ... I came to more realization today .. and it's good ... i'm being strong, and i love the saying .. every experience just makes me stronger! .. So thank god for failures and mistakes. ... cuz i just learn from them ...And i am doing well today .. and im just gonna take it slow, day by day ... and my life will get back to normal ..i just have to close this part of my life .. for now .. and maybe .. forever. Tomorrow first year CYW meeting .. wonder what that's all about and momma is goin back to work! yeee* ..and im REALLY excited for something else....but that's a secret!! Woot! = )))
LoVe Me ;) April 11 fun times with vera zimmerman!Alright so today was awesome.
One, i didn't think much about the whole thing... which is good! Went to placement, and had great times like always, taught a gym class, had fun outside with the students, solved some problems, got my second card. ah i love it. I don't know why people wouldn't go back for 2nd year after this experience, and im only on my 3rd week! Then, i came home, and did pretty much nothin, was gonna take a nap, but i decided to help with dinner instead, but i wasn't hungry, cuz i haven't really been in the past 3 days. Then, vera zimmerman picked me up from macs. oh vera! ur awesome. We drove around aimlessly ...went to visit my aunt for a while!! ... well i did, vera stayed in the car.. passed like every tim hortons in windsor, went to the one by the train tracks, but then i wanted to go to aubreys instead. Haha, sorry vera! but thanks! Then, sat there for like an hour, and found out that the beans taste the same as the chile. it was exciting. Then i filled out an application because aubrey is certain i can get the job. but, maybe because i put ave i wont! what do u think? hahaha! Then...drove around some more... and i wanted to go to malden, so went on the swings, not TIRE swings, but the ones AT Vera's house... lol. Then, i found some geese, and they were fun ... there was a one legged one... okay, so i thought it was. Then i rolled down the hill... i had a great time... then i found out if you hit a goose in the butt with a stick, nothing will happen to you! it was sweet... then vera dropped me off... honestly vera is an amazing person, and really cheered me up, and i always have a good time with vera! And im excited for about a month!!! wooot!
LoVe Me ;) April 10 after a while.ahh, i am doing much better today. ii just put so many things into perspective and i just .. am facing reality... and it's not THAT bad. but i found this poem in my inbox.. thought id pass it along. ...
AFTER A WHILE!
After a while you learn
the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't always mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead with the grace of a woman not the grief of a child and you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure that you really are strong and you really do have worth and you learn and you learn with every good-bye you learn. By:? Veronica A. Shoffstall p.s- who are you that sent me that comment from my last blog? who are you that i dispise? please tell me. April 09 and it's... over...and it's over... you know i spent like the past day and last night crying ... so much ... but you know what.. it all happened for a reason. it wasn't meant to be right now, maybe it never will be. I'm still young, he's still young, you just never know. it just sucks, because you trust the person and u give them your heart... and they say things, and when something like this happens.. .you question it all? you don't want to doubt them, but you can't help but do so! Jay if you read this, it has been amazing with u in the past 9 months. thank you for all the memories, you made me smile like no one else has. .. maybe it'll work out in the end.. but for now, im happy to be your friend.
...thank you to my sisters ...and all my friends who have been there for me.. who let me talk, cry, rant and rave... thank you!
LoVe Me ;) April 07 whateverrAh, how is it that i can just blurt all my feelings out on this? Whatever... i guess...
So i dont even know whats going on with me lately. i feel like a different person. im taking things too personally and getting upset over things not worth getting upset about.. but then ..sometimes they are. placement has been amazing, i love every minute of every day there. the kids are great...the staff is great, i feel so welcomed.. i called ann today .. and made sure i was doing everything right, she said she was proud of me, so that was good! Umm... tomorrow there is def a P.A.Day ... i don't have to get up early! that's pretty sweet :) im excited to sleep in .. i haven't slept in for 2 weeks now! rediculous, from what it used to be like. So the job i wanted never called me..that pretty much sucks :( .. but maybe they still will! let's hope so! . i would love to have this job . I talked to an old friend last night, and it was a good chat... made me realize some stuff ...ahh ..life can be so frustrating, yet so wonderful ... i can't believe it that im already done my first year of college basically .. seirously! its crazy.. so i hope this weekend will be a good one, and i hope i cheer up a bit .. And only 46 days left...if everything works out! ..
LoVe Me ;) April 02 a bit of an update!well! ... i started placement! seriosuly it is SO awesome! Miss. KArla, they call me :) lol i love it! I hope that ill be able to do a great job with the kids, already playin football at RECESS! yah im sweet!
Umm... so yesterday ... went on a fieldtrip to DEBS PLACE! woot! ... principal gave judy a blank cheque... we were deciding?? shopping? eating? trip to hawaii? HAHA! .. i love those ladies! it's all so awesome... came home and then ... at night went to jays hockey game! they tied..woohoo!.. fun with mrs. h! :) .. then back to his house, to kill 20miNs!. . off to rods, there i discovered im a sweet fighter! lol that's right! =)) played some fighting game against jean michelle, or however u wanna spell that, then against some other dude, and then against natasha, clearly i kicked her butt! lol all in fun though. had a good time there! ... then me and jay took off to jers... and just said hey! .. then off to windsor, to cbc! .. that was pretty freakin boring if u ask me! ... sleeping in the nursery? soo uncomfortable. .. ah well .. cranks in the morning, no one bother me ... came home slept till about 3 ... did a bit of housework, then helped my dad, replace windows, the window trim .. ya dad! .. pulled some cool april fools tricks... k not that cool, but w/e it worked!... umm .. called drivers ed! ii really need to take that already! umm ... had a heart to heart talk with my oldest sister, haven't talked in a long time, about stuff that we did .. it was nice! .. umm... then decided, we should all hang out tmw.. so hopefully itll work out with the guys ... comin to windsor?! who knows... Ohh ...and def.. 50 DAYS LEFT! yep, that's it! that's really soooon! ..
and ii can't wait for summer!.. it's soon too, i still can't get over, only 2 months left of my first year of college, ew, gettin old! haha ...
well goodnight to ya'll!
LoVe Me ;) March 29 sprinnnnnng has begunClearly ... i had a good week last week.!monday was jays 18th birthday! !... i didn't hang out with him, but ya it was his bday and alsoo first day of spring :)! Umm ... tuesday, headed out to harrow to surprise jay for his birthday :) .. went to jers... played the sweet car racing, im actually getting pretty darn good at that! woot! saw JOSH!!! after sooo long! it was sooo good to hang out with him .. yee* wednesdayy i don't think i did anything.. i chilled a lot with kailey! ... umm...thurs ..singing practice, then kailey over...... then umm .. fri banquet... fun times :) wouldn't let kailey leave !... umm saturday, kailey drove me to jays! ... went to jacob's birthdayyyy party! .. .so cute . then went back to jays ... chilled there for like a milllion hours.. haha, then he drove me to timmys, and kailey brought me home! found out strike was over! .. sunday .. church, guy lavoie is like my favorite person in the entire world.... hunting for ministroni soup with aubrey all afternooon ... haha ..monday ... to stclair to figure out a bunch of crap, chickened out of talking to sibley! .. kait n me went out to eat... then ... drove around :D .. then she dropped me off at timmys, surprised kailey, and she drove me home. with a couple stops ... lol and some non conversational occurences... lol came home and .. was pretty nervous for placement, But i talked to sheree and she made me feel 100% better!!... umm new funnest game in the world = object 20 questions! ! : )) i could seirously play it foreverrrrr! umm today woke up so frickn early! lol ... 6:40.. dang eh!? well went to placement at CTK! ... it was soooo good for the first day, every staff member i have met thus far is so nice to me, and very approachable, the principal is sweet... im in a grade 6 class, one child in the class is autistic and the other .... suffering from fetal alcohol syndrome... well they think?!? Ahh, but i met a lot of the kids, and they think im cool ... "oh miss karla" lol i love it ... goin to teach b/s tonight! should be goood! ... pumped for the rest of the week, but mainly pumped for 55 days!!!! woot! .
well that's it for now ...
LoVe Me ;) March 20 ?still on strike...supposed to be doing placement....
happy birthday jay =)) xoxo
Last week was full of excitement...mom and dad brought me home some stuff ...yay. Got to hang out in harrow last night, with jer for a change!! woot ...i pretty muchh can't wait till summer comes around... and aubrey-- 64 days!! that's really close by!! i need to find a job.. that's what im gonna do this week...
LoVe Me ;) March 15 woohoO!So, it's 7:51 AM! yes i am upp this early! It's because all night i couldn't sleep! .. i was hyped up about this week, and just everything thats going on! .. So Strike for St.Clair is on... :S I don't know if i should be happy about it or upset about it!! The downside to it, is we are missing placements, and i don't understand when we can pick that up! Anywho, Exams were done, I think i did pretty well! ... kaiters and i had a sweet time taking them! lol .. and richard phillips has to be the worst possible teacher ever! .. Umm, i hung out with carol on monday! I was so happy, i haven't seen her forever! Although,plans got a lil messed up .. we chatted and caught up on a lot of stuff, and we're hanging out friday =))) that will definetely be FUN! .. umm today .. im gonna get my hair done and do a couple other things... thenn later jays comin over! that should be a good time as well! :) Umm.. Tomorrow i think im spending the day with emily, and having some fun with her ;) wooooot! ..Then who knows whats up Friday and Saturday and even sundayY! .. Jay's Birthdayy on Monday! .. im excited even though it's his birthday!! lol .. anywho, im gonna go do something, cuz i am dying of boredom! ... Kaitersss i miss yoU! .. Welll, that's it for now folks!! LoVe Me ;) March 06 quick updateee!well i no longer have that question... it's done and taken care of ... wow ... i have been putting so much thought and prayer into it..and now i dont even have to do anything ...except be there for them. Sno camp was pretty sweet... lots of good times... cold and fun! Sick affter blahh :( umm last week... mon .. nothing... tues i forget what i did ... exam hung out wtih em, went to jays, came home... thurs ..schoool andd examm .. friday exam, home slept, got woken up .. GRR lol ..jk .. then talked with ppl on the phone ... uhh, went to jers show.. saw SHEREE!!! whoop! then went to pizza express in kville to see jay, then back to his house, then to his new house and barn to see the peacocks... lol .. oh lovely times... then jayy drove me home..
Saturday ..chilled the girls night .. it was alright... quality chat with lindsay! thanks :) umm .. then sun .. churchhh sleptt and n/c then went to emilys! inhershoes* good movie! loved it. .. came home.. went to bed RIGHT AWAY! lol definetely nottt!! stayed up all night... went to bed at like 7 or something... dont remember... um woke up at like 11:15...went to school to take the final exam, good times .. lol! sheree ur my fav white girl and my coach was very supportive ;) ! lol .. umm.. came home, talked with kailey! omiword! crazzinesss ...and umm.. yah
... man i wonder if we're gonna have a strike? finding out at midnight tonight!!
... can't wait till summer... really it's almost here if u think about it
... if the strike really happens, my summer starts TOMORROW! and if not placement cominggg up!
... things right now are going really good!! im quite satisfied <3 and in love
... some ppl suck lol
well thats all for now .. thought id do a quick updateee!!
LoVe Me ;) February 21 .. .. changes.. .Well last week was absolutely horrible . Things with friends are better ...valentine's day had to be the worst day i have ever had.. not just for 1 reason.. but a couple. But then some parts of it was good "schnitzel" hahah .. oh boy..Um, School was alright all week, nothing special...Friday went to carly's hockey game ... with emily then hung out with an old friend- good ol grade school memories.. haha.. then came home. Saturday, Went to Jay's hockey game with aubrey, then to jeremy's and we fixed everything...okay, so i guess that isn't horriblee ..
But Seirously, what do you do when you seirously Are terrified to make the right decision, you know what you have to do and should do, but u just won't.. Right now i am being so stubborn in two departments of my life.. i just think it will all work out .. honest to God, im terrified... i just wow .. can't believe it .. Today i got an email from stephanie. She doesn't understand how much it did for me .. steph i love you!! I need to have faith in myself, as others have in me.. i need to not depend on others, and just DO the right thing. Well sno- camp 06' is this weekend.. i am hoping that it will be a good time.. i need a "spiritual boost" ... i just need to get away for a while.. it's gonna be good for me.. i hope that we will all share some good times.. And another scary thing- in a month i am done my first year of college!!! WHOA!!! where the heck did time go?? seriously, im going to be doing placement tho- @ Christ the King Elementary School. I am definetely nervous ... Ahh, how many things are gonna change in a month?!? if i do the right things, so many... LoVe Me ;) |
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